Boots, Sorry itsn't Enough...

Today I have realized something, now that I have felt how it feels I am truly sorry for what I have done and caused. You didn't deserve what I did to you nor what I'm trying to do. A sorry isn't enough I know that, but you must know that I am truly and honestly sorry from the bottom of my heart. Before I wasn't thinking, I'm still not thinking, at least the way I should be. I left you out in the cold after everything we have built up. Yet you were still there for me, I left and gave up on you for something that led me nowhere then downfall. Boots, I know you will find it from the bottom of your heart to see eye to eye with me and fix the hurt and pain I have caused and we share. I swear upon everything that I meant no harm and I had no idea how you felt and were going through. Rub it in my face you shall, keeping me against it you shall...I always learn the hard way, but at least I can finally now say that my lesson was learned and I now promise myself that I won't fall into the same hole. I won't make the same mistake, I'm beginning to regret this little moment of my life, but regret not, never. Yet you as a great person you are, where there for me after everything I did. I didn't deserve it and still don't.
So I'll end this with a quote...

"The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs."